Good Enough

Contemplation of the Day: Good Enough

As I was sitting at the park with my husband watching my son play in the dirt, I began to contemplate. I always knew I was a good writer, I just didn't think I was good enough. Story of my life. Well maybe good is good enough. Maybe it always has been, I was just conditioned to think that it wasn't. I was always working so hard to prove myself, to prove I was worthy of unconditional love from someone who didn't even have that to give. Letting go of some of my perfectionism and letting go of the need to always prove myself is difficult, and maybe something I will never be able to give up entirely. Instead of proving how "good" "perfect" or "worthy" I am, I want to prove how much I love the people who love me. Even when I don't always show it. Even on the days that I am struggling. Even though I am emotional. Even though I am anxious. Even though I can be rigid in my routines. No one is perfect, but we are all human. However, what I can do is love fiercely, emotionally regulate my whole family, communicate well, and have the strength to heal myself while raising my son. I will never be good enough for my mother, but I am good enough for myself and my real family, and that's all I need.